My Life. My Story.

2006-10-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

it is time to come back to my own space, my own blog. friday the 13th today, but luck wasnt a factor in today events. the last day of ajc school life has made me very emotional at one point in time.

it all began with my cat high prelim results and i knew that i will be going to ajc. my o levels results comfirms that i will be staying there. from orientation to 22/05 to 18/05, i felt that i grown up over the 2 years. learnt many things, made many good friends, found lost friends, the good times, bad times that will we shared will never be forgotten. There are so many people that i wanted to thank as all of them played a part in shaping my life. they made a difference.

i'm really glad that i went out today. i made my stand, made my choice and i walk away standing true to my character and did not waver in the face of adversity. to me, it was a test of what i always have believed in and whether i will stay true to my beliefs.

i do admit that at times in 18/05 i felt first 3 months sickness. at times i missed my ex-classmates and felt it was a pity that 3 months was such a short time. i have since come to accept the fact and i feel that the time we spent together might be short, but it was full of quality. they were people who made me feel like coming to ajc every morning.

when i first entered into 18/05, i was quite resentful of being the class. the reason is because i should have been placed in a non clao class. the first year was full of challenges to me. there was the mass civics incident, me and ee kent, surviving marcus, being sacked from air rifle and others that i could not remember now.
the second year was making me and the rest of the guys to merge as one body. no more pw, no more feud. also, i got to know each of the gang of four members in depth and realise that the berlin wall that used to be between me and them was just an illusion on my part.

there are so many things to talk about actually, but whatever happens, i hope that they will cherish the moment and although i might never meet up with some of time ever again(i hope not, but things happen) i just wanted to say that i really enjoyed each and every of ur company and to me these memories will last forever.

i would like to say that the thing that i enjoyed doing most in 2 years of aj life is taking the train home with friends. really very enjoyable and the best way to destress after school. so to those people who took the train with me on my way home, thank you.

"The world is what you view it as"

2006-08-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

seems like i got some free time aft clearing some of my school work. finally on schedule for my sch work.

felt strongly on what 39/05 prsented on bridge today thus i here to voice out my comments.

i was told tat every 3 seconds in this world a child dies from poverty in africa. but hav u realised tat every 3 seconds there is also a child born into this world?

in general, every 1 second someone in this world dies, but for that every second, a person is also born into this world. that is the balance of the world. there will always be ppl poor/rich smart/stupid etc. it is all part of the balance that we have in this world.

u see nothing is definite in life except death. so what if u r poor, rich, smart or stupid? we will all die at some point in time, either sooner or later.

my point is what is most important is how u live ur life. the process, and not how it will end, because we will all finish at the same place-death.

in this rat race that we are racing in everyday, have u ever slowed down and appreciate the things, ppl arnd u? if only revision lectures pace wasnt tat fast...

"In life, we see death. In death, we find life"

2006-07-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

i'm finally 18!

haha. eyery year on tis day is a special day for me. it like getting a new life. goodbye to the 17 yr old me. helllo 18 yr old me!

today was a horribly long day! esp casey maths tutorial where we had a record number of presenters! n she so horrible dont let the class sing bday song =(

i seriously tot i would escape frm being tear aft surviving until chem remedial at arnd 6 plus. in the end faced wif the odds of being 1 v 3 plus jiayi said he wont help me, decided i stood no chance so juz chiong already n aim andie as counter attack plan. at least i managed to tear andie. lol.

i like to say that only the bernie hair look like me lor. seriously cant see any similarities apart frm that.

anyway tis will be my last post for a long while. will stop blogging until end of A lvl. it time to pia!

until den, there tmr trigo/vectors test to worry abt.

many thxs to all the ppl who made today special, i really appreciate it a lot.

It's time to start something new.

2006-07-19T19:01:00.000+08:00

when the easy road leads u to a dead end, u noe it's time to change path take the hard road.

sometimes life turns out to be more den spending each day without worries.

life is making sacrifices.

at the end of the day, u will still be the system's servant.

all man r equal, but no man starts frm the same place.

hope will keep me alive.

0 ---> 61

Keep the faith, i will make the jump.

2006-06-05T22:18:00.000+08:00

1 week has past and time to do some reflection over what i did during the past week.

firstly been feeling uneasy over the past few days. seems like i was abandoning a lot of my friends. i feel like i become a cold person. the thing i felt damn bad abt was not being able to go mel bday celebration. i didnt sent her a msg to congrat her. ok i admit it was a bit inevitable as firstly mr andie hong sent msg to me at 12.02 am which i saw it at abt 9 plus where i was already in tampines area. sucks man shld hav told me earlier i would turn down my dad request to help him in his work. so there i was stuck in gongshan pri until nite where i also had to follow him to my grandma new home to do work. 1 whole day gone. on a side note, the yong tau foo stall near there was very nice n cheap.

also having even touch any of my work. ok i admit felt quite relieved aft hearing today tat jameson oso spend 1 week at pre u sem. zikai oso mention to me tat he nvr see my online during hols. ok muz admit when i use com i play game. argh addicted to tis game called ______ ok i wont say out the name cuz it quite a lame game to some ppl. i seriously hope to stop playing n let my sis take over. but she keep asking me over for advice. damn how to concentrate? also reminded me of wei rong who added me on msn months ago n i haven chatted wif him yet. sucks man. i really don wish things to become a frament of my memories. things tat i treasure. ppl that i cherish. ppl who changed my life. ppl who touch my life. sometimes it is very difficult for me. the heart is willing. but the body juz cant work the way i wan it to. frustration slowly seeps in.

time seems to be going too fast. there r so many things to do, so little time, so many games to play, so many tv shows to watch. sometimes i wish time will stop n i can appreciate the peace n arnd me.

so today i went back to sch. althou quite a few ppl ponned. it was day tat allowed me to sort out my thoughts n feelings. watching over the hedge wif ragen n ee kent next to me helps. at tat point in time i really felt tat watever discontentment i had abt ee kent truely disappear. maybe a light hearted movie tat cheered me up did the trick. really wish i could travel at the speed of light aft watching the show. lol. althou my neck super stiff aft sitting in 3rd row for abt 1.5hrs.

for tis week, tmr muz go to help my dad for the whole day again. so wed n thur i will need to do a gp essay to hand up n data analysis qn for lesson on fri. maybe a pool seesion on fri wif jia cheng. start small. baby steps it might be but i hope i can really give my best shot for mid yr.

n i will make a promise tat as soon as the a lvls end n i no longer hav the burden on me, i will look up every single person tat i noe in my life(provided i still remember thou) to meet up n say a simple wod of thanks. becuz one way or another they play a part in changing my life.

2006-02-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

got the best remedy over the weekend.

the scoreboard read: Liverpool 1 Manchester United 0

man u n their fans can say wat they wan. we won. they lost. it juz so simple. i don like to argue anymore. juz accept ur defeat la. be gracious. in football either u win lose or draw. who cares who play better? who cares who was more lucky? we won. u lost. n the winning feeling is juz so nice. we got the bragging rights. till the next time we play again.

read a moralising book oso. The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom. u can read chapter 1(only tat) at http://www.albomfivepeople.com/fivepeopleexcerpt.htm

wonder who will be the 5 ppl tat i wll meet in heaven. the one who died so tat i lived. the one made the sacrifice for me. the stranger who plays a part in my life b4 i was born. the one tat i love the most. the one i failed to save.

n of course the person who i did saved. i be waiting for him/her to come meet me.

felt more positive in the mind. at least it a start. is there a book tat can stop me frm be too obsessed wif soccer? tat my only prob now.

realised it always abt living ur life for something/someone. dreams goals ambitions. making a difference. no life is a waste to live. yes the 2 person tat i cant click wif in my life, their life is not a waste. they are there for a reason. a reason tat my eyes couldnt see. maybe it was not meant for me to see.

we r all living for a reason. sometimes the reson is not known to us. we gotta find the reasons out ourselves.

"i live for u, so tat i be one of the five u will meet in heaven"

2006-02-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

a quick post cuz hav to stop using com.

been feeling a lot of emotions. today astro session was shiok. haha enjoying the carefree feeling of watching the stars in the sky. made me forget all my worries. it was one of the simple pleasures tat i enjoy doing.

haiz i seriously need to start mugging sooner or later. in the sorry state tat i'm in now i better start gaing some momentum. but i don really noe how to start.

Joy. Passion. Confidence. Life. Live. Learn. Experience. Try try n try. Love. Cherish. Enjoy. Believe. Get me a mug. put all tis things in n u can be a mugger. but u will lose all tis. tat is y i quite reluctant. i still wan to enjoy wat i enjoy.

ppl always wan the best of both worlds. but in true fact u cant get them.

it was always nice to be able to talk to somebody abt my feelings.

wonder y tian wei was not online today. sucks i need to ask him some football stuff.

i need to sort out my life.

Dreams-How u wished they always come true. but they dont.

2006-02-14T20:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines' Day!

if i didnt get a chance to wish u tat today. i wish u now. better late den nvr.

well today was JUZ a normal tue. thou made to feel like a bastard/asshole today.

haha received presents frm my classmate. n i was quite reluctant to pay 2 measly bucks to ah shui for gifts when he ask for it few days ago. BUT i did pay k. n tat jiayi kept folding hearts during gp lecture which makes me feel even more guilty. but i survived today. Add in the fact tat mr jameson kong kept calling me a back door user n tat odd notion tat i might be gay. juz to clarify. NO i'm not. thou i would like to screw jameson up(wif a screwdriver of course). *grins*

guitar peformance during casey lessons. well it was PERFECT except tat ragen couldnt hold his laughter when we did timewasting tactics.

the ice cream stall today was QUITE a success. in fact most of them wanted to pay up the 20 bucks aft seeing today's business. lol.

overall a fun day. n quite slack oso. lol.

i hope i entertained u.

2006-02-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

my com is back online! a new soul in an old body. nothing in it now thou. sian. i hate starting frm scratch. build up for so long already. nvr the same again. thou now is xp instead of 98. meaning can use more programs n lesser games.

reina red card. foolish. how clever can u get by gettin urself sent off 2-0 down at the 81 min? i rather concede a goal more. 3 match suspension. say goodbye to ur first team spot if dudek becomes godlike against arsenal.

angel mortal wif 18/06 abt to end. revealing identity on wed which means i wont be receiving anymore letters. eager to meet who my angel is. shld be quite an interesting person.

18/05 has a class blog. still early to say whether it will work out. to summarise, our class did some successful things but oso failed to deliever on some things too. wait n see ba.

there will be astro on fri. which means another stoning session without the j1s. 12.15 to 7. shld i go down to doby wif jameson? still considering. the con? my best fren is in the package too.

Life is....
by Mother Theresa

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is life, fight for it

2005-12-31T15:16:00.000+08:00

the last day of 2005

oso the last day of my work attachment at coral sec... attachment becuz i dont get paid... not supposed to report today but somehow felt obliged to come instead of lazing arnd at home... did 2 work attachment including tis liao... last time at Camberra Primary.... both was an enriching experience... but next time wont wan to do again liao.... lol....

2005 has been a great yr for me i guess.

there was the first foray into jc life. i can now say i fit into jc life already.

but first 3 months jc was so dif frm normal jc life. in normal jc life u get hardcore or wat they call serious mugging... den u hav the meaningless competitions n power struggles.... in first 3 months u simply juz hav fun... fun fun n more fun...

overall i still glad tat there r ppl who simply heck care abt all tis shit... ppl who juz simply enjoy having fun... they noe who they r....

it was oso my first time in blogging... yes i did got into trouble becuz of tat... lol...

first time playing fantasy football... found out tat i got some talent for it... lol...

first time to genting wif few of my classmates...

it was like a lot of first times things tat i did in 2005....

2005 a yr to be remember... a yr which goes into history tmr....

for 2006 1 major wish i would like to do is to go overseas again without parents b4 i go army.... n of course muz do well in studies oso.... aim to finish holiday hmwk by mid janaury.... dont laugh....

going to cut hair ltr.... new hairstyle for the new yr.... hmm... actually short hair all same pattern one...

the last thing for 2005 tat i wan say is: i finally found the best way to describe ee kent.

Ee Kent-Ming hui in sheep clothing.

Disclaimer: The above sentence is purely fictionous. Any resemblance to any person dead or alive is purely conicidental.

like tat wont get in trouble liao.... lol....

to all out there... Have a better 2006! Happy Fun New Year!

tis post was brought to u by a lousy MOE approved com at Coral sec IT room 1

tat all folks!

2005-12-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

well today sending off for see man was a walk down memory lane for me.

simply by being at the airport itself made me remember the times i went there for various reasons.

it's not everyday tat i go to the airport u see. haha.

feeling lazy to type all my thoughts, but was thinking tat wat would happen to a person if he/she loses all his/her memories.

felt tat memories r like a major reason y we exists. to be void of tat is like losing who u r.

but the ppl tat r hurt most will be the ppl tat u noe all ur life until u lost ur memory, ppl whom u cared abt, ppl who u love.

u see things may change, but memories will nvr change. like my memory of u will nvr change even if u turn into a old person. i still remember how u was like.

memories r a powerful thing they drive us forward. they make us cherish the present. they act as a safety deposit box where u keep all ur precious stuff. but the catch is u can nvr open it again. u can only view it.

u see ppl change, but our memory of who they r will remain as such.

none of us can afford to lose their memories. y?

because in memories, things nvr changes. n we always only remember the good things.

2005-11-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

i hate holidays.

got nothing to do but a lot of things tat i wan to do but too lazy to do. damn it la.

i hate being alone without my friends n stoning at home. damn it.

i wish i was more enthu n not keep asking ppl to organise outing. wtf la sometimes i even phang seh ppl.

i hate losing contact wif my old friends. now we all in dif places arnd singapore n dif lifestyles. heck sometimes i don even noe wat to tok to them la. some not even in singapore liaoz.

i miss the laughter tat we had together. playing brifge wif u all was the best. fooling arnd in class. wish i could do it again. like real i could.

i miss ahoy most. haiz. i miss ah pek. feel damn gulity la he always sms me but i nvr really tok to him. ya i don really noe wat to say to him. haiz. i miss np training la! even thou i don really like some of the np ppl but i miss np training. astro is so boring la. i miss some of the ppl in my sec 4 class. ya some only. lol.

even closest friends the bond will become slowly erode away over time. unless u see them everyday. n yes these ppl r closest to u but quite sian ah everyday see the same faces. sometimes feel like seeing other ppl faces instead or toking to other ppl u noe instead.

it nice to meet up once in a while n remember abt the past, the times we spend together. wth we shld do it more often la.

someone anyone pls tell me there is an outing soon.

"it will nvr be like b4, nvr the same again"

2005-11-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

Genting Trip

Day 1

the bus journey was 1 hell of a ride. totally cant fall asleep. damn jerky. only slept like 1 hr at arnd 3 plus. wha finally reach at 7 plus. raining heavily sia n damn freaking cold la. cant check in for our rooms yet but debbie father got 1 room to put all our stuff n we played cards at the corridor outside the room to pass time. wanted to maken but kopitam not opened yet the rest food damn ex. so we chiong arcade. quite lousy the arcade, everytime sure got some part of the machine spoil one. the snooker table damn lousy oso hit the ball will curve one n the hole damn big easy to pot balls. the theme park was quite fun but queueing time damn sian. haha watch goblet of fire at there quite nice the show la. 1.15 am somemore. now i finally noe victor krum is the guy tat ppl put on their msn pic. lol. i watch liverpool second half match at bk, damn funny, i tot 12 den start. actually start at 11. lol see liverpool score goal i damn shiok.

Day 2

had breakfast wif hs n phang at hainan chicken resturant. tis one i remember clearly cuz the food is f***ing con money la. phang porridge costs 10 ringgit, me n hoe seng nasi lemak same price as porridge but damn lousy. singapore $1.90 one can trash it la. at least pizza hut lunch still not bad. phang n hs phang seh la. sell their theme park ticks to andie n his gf, den left me n mel be the 2 couple lightbulb. sian.

watch a bit if man u match at nite, sian diao halfway went back to slp la. finally had a better nite slp den day 1.

Day 3

time to go back liao went kopitam breakfast last min shopping pack up den go off liao.

genting trip was quite fun. well worth the money. pity our class the rest nvr go sure more fun.

genting trip makes me realise things oso. good experience overall.

malaysians like to cut queue n they damn zai at doing tat.

"Somethings nvr changes, somethings r forever"

"Brighten up my day wif ur smile"

"To think I might not see u smile"

2005-11-09T18:03:00.000+08:00

cant dota now cuz my sis is dling some video.... ltr dota lag i tio kp....

so now take the time to reflect on my insignificant life n make some confessions....

well... op today felt tat all of us really did very well.... didnt noe abt the morning shift ppl... but heard good news frm them.... Confession#1 guess i was relatively mean abt amos grp.... kept finding fault wif them.... guess they tried their best oso.... haiz.... juz cant helped it.... Confession#2 i shldnt gloat over my fellow teammate op performance..... yes he was not as good as rehearsal, but he still did a relatively good job.... Confession#4 i screwed up one of the powerpoint slides.... n cuz hui min to cut short her speech.... haiz, stupid me... why nvr pay full attention?

Confession#4 i got emotional, very emotional at the end of camp.... felt like i was saying my last words to the kids n the feeling tat i will nvr see them again.... of course sad rite.... haiz, if only i controlled my emotions better....

Confession#5 i tink i too quiet at times... sometimes i juz fall into the role of a listener.... esp when i feel out of place.... ppl wont noe me well in a short period of time.... besides i always give ppl a bad first impression.... haiz, could hav done better by showing more interest....

Confession#6 been surfing for ppl blog add.... haha... found out tat it is so easy to noe abt a stranger life simply if he/she blogs on blogspot n hav a friendster account.... u be amazed....

been reflecting on my life too.... my work attachment wif my dad at camberra pri is finally over, camp over, pw over, wat next? cdp... sian.... i noe i'm going to unenthu n slack for cdp.... i nvr change....

reading wat i blog abt.... tink the 2 most impt tat i always tok abt is making a difference to someone else life.... i really enjoy doing tat.... hope for more chances in the future.... n happiness.... i believe tat all of us set out doing things with the aim of being happy.... at times when u r doing things against ur will, find happiness in it.... somethings simple things may bring simple pleasure.... u juz hav to noe where to find it....
*wonders when was the last time i felt sad abt my life?*

i even hope tat strangers tat read my blog.... their life will change for the better(don noe how it will happen thou.... lol...)

"humans cant live without each other"
"the best things in life r often free"

2005-11-07T16:15:00.000+08:00

back from camp....

very tired but it was a once in a lifetime experience! guess i will nvr hav to the chance to do it again as next yr is A lvls already..... was sad at the end of the camp.... i really felt attached to the kids even thou they were giving me a lot of problems.... becuz i noe tat tis will most probably be the last time tat i see them....

3 days of camp.... at the end of it, even thou i did not achieved my purpose for coming to tis camp, which is to find back the child in me thru them.... but i learned a lot of things frm them oso.... i realise i can nvr be like them already.... i oso see frm them tat they showed their true emotions as they please.... no pretentious kids in my grp.... tat is 1 thing tat needs to be cherish....

the kids were very playful n handful..... but aft i got to noe them well(i remembered their names by the first day night)..... they r all actually very nice kids.... juz playful.... thou they could treat andrew better instead of keep making him cry.... but i admit i did sort of agree wif the rest of the guys.... but i muz be unbiased n stop them frm disturbing him....

ok... colin n darren r the best 2 guys.... nvr give me any trouble at all.... but they r quite quiet....
wei rong n bernie r very playful.... wilard.... hmm....he is like always not interested in the activities.... jia hui is worse.... he is the slackest in the grp.... if u see him running it is a miracle itself already.... joshua needs to be faster in watever he do.... andrew needs to be more independent.... lastly the best kid in my grp..... kai zhou.... he is the one i like most.... thou he always wan to take the flag n complains abt cleaning up the floor.... but he followed everything tat i said in the end.....

cant believe 3 days went by so fast.... the first day was the worst... but by the third day... u find tat how come so fast finish.... the kids finally started to behave..... n i cant bear to let them leave too....

haha.... i guess my favourite camp pharse to the kids is "later, later".... well.... later means i oso don noe but i'm trying to let u tink tat i noe.... lol.... n they keep calling me uncle..... i only 7 yrs older nia... lol....

but kids tis days n kids of our generation r so so different... took me a while to get used to it..... it was an eye opening experience.... really enjoyed myself..... it was not a piece of cake or smooth sailing.... but i found joy being wif them....

to killer whale 5, i would like to thx them for being in the camp itself.... they really made my day(thou not all the time).... all the best in life..... cherish wat u hav now..... n i really hope tat they will one day come back to tns to take another batch of campers like me..... they made a difference in my life.... n i hope tat i did made a difference in ur life too..... take care and behave urself in the future.... hope to see u all again someday.....

to the rest of killer whale facilators.... it was a wonderful experience being wif u guys for pre camp n actual camp.... thou at times i may feel out of place becuz of all the tjcians.... but nevertheless.... u all made killer whale successful.... n a enjoyable hse to be in.....

finally to my partner in crime.... well u did a great job in taking care of the kids..... well done.... haha we survived 3 days wif the kids..... a miracle itself..... lol....

hope to see u all soon again.... take care n all the best in life..... u all impressed me in ur own way.... n without u all, the camp wont run smoothly..... u all made the difference! thx u....

"happiness is infectious"

i will miss ur smiles, laughter, ur boundless energy, u calling me uncle, ur refusal to keep quiet n sit down, u asking me whether i married or not, u leading me for the amazing race, u splashing water on me, playing touch ruby wif u, ur determination in climbling the rock walk, being wif u dragon boating in the rain, shouting at u guys, waking u up, the unsuccessful icebreakers, the cheers, our impromptu performance, the campfire, eating wif hands, n most of all i miss u ppl n the joy tat we had in tat 3 short days.

2005-11-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

new blogskin! haha... not tat i don support liverpool liaoz.... juz tat i feel tat my skin outdated already.... tis yr win again i will put up the blogskin again.... ok i dreaming again..... happen to saw tis skin who looks simple n funny....

ok.... since my blogskin on terrorists..... shall blog on hatred.... i tink everyone has hated someone sometime at some stage in life..... ppl who noe me noes tt i currently don click well wif one of my classmates.... sian la.... not tat i wan to hate him oso.... but i can no longer change tat fact....

Humans ah Humans..... God created them to be so unique tat no two person r exactly the same.... not even twins....
Humans each have their own strenghts n weakness.... the different ability to work wif different ppl....
Humans-they can so easily give love and take it back....
Humans-so similar yet so different.....
Humans-the different ability to communicate wif different ppl, the same sentence hav different meaning to different ppl....
Humans-there can nvr be balance, it is always loopsided....
Humans-power hungry, yet when they got power, they wonder y they wanted it in the first place....
Humans- only cherish things tat r gone, but ignore them when it is there for then.....
Humans-always complaining abt how little time they hav, knowing tat there will always be tmr....
Humans-seeks recognition, but too shy to admit it.....
Humans-sometimes optimistic, sometimes pessimistic....
Humans-they suspect becuz they dont trust, but they trust wat they suspect....
Humans-they fail to try, thus they try to fail....
Humans-they r always dreaming of doing the impossible....
Humans-they love to break boundaries, test their limits....
Humans-they believe in God, but tink tat fate/destiny r juz bullshit....
Humans-wat they cannot explain they claim it as luck/coincidence....
Humans-u can nvr guess wat's going thru tat mind....
Humans-they noe can nvr survive without each other, but at times they r so selfish....
Humans-they always assume first, den get the facts...
Humans-they will nvr admit their weakness.....

well tis is juz my point of view..... see if any apply to u.... some of them apply to me too..... got quite a few r juz my assumptions.....

"Hatred clouds how u view things"

2005-09-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

here something to ponder on....

it amazing how knowledge or the lack of it can shape one person's life....
when i look at newborn babies n young kids.... their simle their expressions all come frm withnin.... not fake at all... they happy they smile or laugh.... they not happy they pout.... n oso look cute when they do tat!

i mean wat kind of person would harm them? tis world is getting insane.... wat hav we nutured into? u noe now arts central got child of our time show n i tink muz air my views... NUTURE! lol.... where got like some murderer is a murderer is born a murderer? i mean u wont be destined to be a teacher set frm the moment u r born.... tat ridiculous....

influence by other ppl enviroment etc r factors in determining how u live ur life..... the way u think of life is damn important... cuz it shapes who u r.... n the influence arnd u will be very crucial....

positive or negative is by choice.... everyone has a choice la i tink....

ok muz end cuz my sis is bugging me.... influence! lol

take life in its stride.... n don forget tat pure n innocent life tat u once had....

2005-08-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

back home. shared wat mr chio said wif andy n hoe seng cuz i saw tat they still in sch.
went back home wif chin guan. toking wif him reinforces wat i tot abt life.

Life is a beautiful n amazing thing. i'm sastified wif my life. personally everyone shld feel tat way too cuz God is fair. things happen in life for a reason. we cant change wat happen to us but we can change the way u react to it. i believe God gives u the best path. God is fair becuz he gives n he takes. when u can realise tis, u will understand y u r not perfect or y ur life is not perfect or y sometimes things go against u. u cant hav everybody like u n nobody hate u. there will always be ppl tat don like u, even me. when things go aginst u, it is a way of God to let u prove urself or test ur limits as to how far u can or will go. i tink i went over the edge tis time but i nvr regretted it. God let me learnt a valuable lesson frm tis. i'm sure ee kent is sastified wif his life. he got good results n a nice gf. God give him tis but He took away frens frm him. nobody would wan to switch life wif another person, i defenitely wont. things may change in life n u will nvr noe wat will happen. tat is the amazing thing abt life.

let me share my personal experience.
when i was in pri sch, i wanted to go to the best class, but i end up in 6B(second best). at first i was a bit unhappy. but 6B was damn nice. got miss tan our fun loving teachers n many great ppl n jokers in class. we had fun. den of course results no good. so cant get into my first choice sec sch. end up in cat high. same thing happen. i was not happy at first. but cat high ppl r great man! den aj oso not not my first choice. but 22/05 changed everything. it was similar to my other class. very nice ppl n love to hav fun together. den i got into 18/05 wan to go back 22 at first. but aft a while they r a nice bunch of ppl in class. how come my classes all same pattern one huh?

tok to long time frens like daniel basuki ytd nite. realise it was a very long time nvr see him liaoz n 4-5 ppl. he was in sg airport transit to US. sirui oso reminded me of ppl like kenny n many others. even 22/05, nvr see them for a while already. at least jia min n kenneth bday coming, so got chance to meet up again. wat can i do without tis ppl in my life? even thou i no longer see them everyday in sch, they left me the best thing tat one could give. wonderful memories of the time we spent together. i thank them.

oh ya, like to add on tat everybody in tis world has something special in them tat make thems unique. so 30 yrs down the road, as i was telling chin guan, despite his change in appearance, he will still be the chin guan tat i noe of. nvr change. i can tell tat he is the chin guan tat i noe in jc. tat goes for everyone tat i noe.

rocks la all my classes. i love my life. cant do without any of the frens tat i noe now. all the best to u all wherever u r!!!

i like to leave wif tis. nvr be afraid to be urself. cuz ppl like who u r, not wat u r(in terms of achievements blah blah blah)

a pity my blog lasted only 43 posts. it was good while it lasted. i may or may not blog anymore. promos coming up.

*sob* feel like very emotional now......

2005-08-10T21:34:00.000+08:00

been thinking how come i always face wif the same situation??? everytime frens come n go.... like when i went to sec 1.... i nvr really keep in touch wif my pri sch frens.... when we met up again in sec 3 n 4... i could feel tat things were not the same as it was in pri sch.... somehow it was dif.... den aft sec sch went jc.... nvr meet up wif my cat high buddies unless they r in aj.... like leon jacob jun yuan kai yuan lester jun xiong chek haw yi cheng jia hong vincent tano luke zhi zhong.... ppl like guan you n wen hao only saw them a few times.... haiz.... distance is such a big factor... if they r in aj still got keep regular contact.... but if they r not... hard to see them in person.... it the same thing wif my first 3 month class.... lesser ppl come out tis days..... n it always the same few ppl.... the rest like disappear already....

haiz.... missing all the ppl tat came into my life n left.... hope to meet up again wif them again.... why is it only when ppl left den u miss them.... haiz.... life goes on.... how come 4-5 no hav class outing??? haiz only got soccer n i rarely go one.... 6b 2-8 4-5 22/05.... those r the best classes i hav even been in... guess i'm blessed.... hope aft i leave aj... i will add on 18/05 to the list....

take care ppl.... wherever u r in tis world..... n i thank God for letting me noe u... tat our paths crossed... n the wonderful memories tat we shared.... tat knowing the fact tat life will nvr be the same without you.... tat we brighten up each other life juz by giving care n concern to each other.... the jokes n laughter we shared.... the games we played together..... those wacky ideas.... those tricks we played.... those birthday celebrations.... those times where we makan together in the canteen.... n many many more....

tat wat frens r for....

2005-07-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

"If you limit your actions in life to things that nobody can possibly find fault with, you will not do much"
-Charles Lutwidge Dodgson

i have done wat others r afraid to do. I challenged power n authority in search of the truth.

"Courage is doing what you are afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared"
-Eddie Rickenbacker

i admit i was afraid at first. but once i stood up, there was no turning back.

Courage + Confidence

2005-07-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

today is my birthday!!! rocks la.... in the morning celebrated wif my og ppl.... but not enough time tocut n eat the cake so give to 18/05.... den econs tutorial chua last one wif us.... ending tat time we give him the nice heart shape flower writing tat we love him.... took lots of pic for him..... den andy ragen hoe seng came back wif 17 different types of bao for my birthday present.... best la they.... gave two of my bao to chua.... den escort him to staff room.... finally cheered three cheers for him... half of the class in class oso cheering.... den damn loud.... if i was chua sure damn touch one.... on the way back they sing happy birthday song to me.... so loud tat even zhi hao in toilet can hear la... so pai seh.... lol....

aft sch went crash aje... cope their food.... later go guitar crash oso.... went to find thaddeus... play bridge right under arthur lim noses literally wif jasper classmates.... harmo saw jia cheng.... he give me chips lol.... basically spend the whole time in sch walking arnd... finding ppl to kill time.....

had dinner at swensons.... got me chin guan jin jie kenneth zhi hao jia min see man.... haha my bday got free ice cream.... the candle super short.... b4 i left saw peck hor... oso chek haw msg me to say happy bday.... surprised tat he remembered.... eat finish at 9.30.... but stoned for half an hr den left t 10.... lol.... damn fun n tiring day la.....

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