Monday, June 05, 2006
1 week has past and time to do some reflection over what i did during the past week.
firstly been feeling uneasy over the past few days. seems like i was abandoning a lot of my friends. i feel like i become a cold person. the thing i felt damn bad abt was not being able to go mel bday celebration. i didnt sent her a msg to congrat her. ok i admit it was a bit inevitable as firstly mr andie hong sent msg to me at 12.02 am which i saw it at abt 9 plus where i was already in tampines area. sucks man shld hav told me earlier i would turn down my dad request to help him in his work. so there i was stuck in gongshan pri until nite where i also had to follow him to my grandma new home to do work. 1 whole day gone. on a side note, the yong tau foo stall near there was very nice n cheap.
also having even touch any of my work. ok i admit felt quite relieved aft hearing today tat jameson oso spend 1 week at pre u sem. zikai oso mention to me tat he nvr see my online during hols. ok muz admit when i use com i play game. argh addicted to tis game called ______ ok i wont say out the name cuz it quite a lame game to some ppl. i seriously hope to stop playing n let my sis take over. but she keep asking me over for advice. damn how to concentrate? also reminded me of wei rong who added me on msn months ago n i haven chatted wif him yet. sucks man. i really don wish things to become a frament of my memories. things tat i treasure. ppl that i cherish. ppl who changed my life. ppl who touch my life. sometimes it is very difficult for me. the heart is willing. but the body juz cant work the way i wan it to. frustration slowly seeps in.
time seems to be going too fast. there r so many things to do, so little time, so many games to play, so many tv shows to watch. sometimes i wish time will stop n i can appreciate the peace n arnd me.
so today i went back to sch. althou quite a few ppl ponned. it was day tat allowed me to sort out my thoughts n feelings. watching over the hedge wif ragen n ee kent next to me helps. at tat point in time i really felt tat watever discontentment i had abt ee kent truely disappear. maybe a light hearted movie tat cheered me up did the trick. really wish i could travel at the speed of light aft watching the show. lol. althou my neck super stiff aft sitting in 3rd row for abt 1.5hrs.
for tis week, tmr muz go to help my dad for the whole day again. so wed n thur i will need to do a gp essay to hand up n data analysis qn for lesson on fri. maybe a pool seesion on fri wif jia cheng. start small. baby steps it might be but i hope i can really give my best shot for mid yr.
n i will make a promise tat as soon as the a lvls end n i no longer hav the burden on me, i will look up every single person tat i noe in my life(provided i still remember thou) to meet up n say a simple wod of thanks. becuz one way or another they play a part in changing my life.
Self Destructed at 8:18 PM
