it is time to come back to my own space, my own blog. friday the 13th today, but luck wasnt a factor in today events. the last day of ajc school life has made me very emotional at one point in time.
it all began with my cat high prelim results and i knew that i will be going to ajc. my o levels results comfirms that i will be staying there. from orientation to 22/05 to 18/05, i felt that i grown up over the 2 years. learnt many things, made many good friends, found lost friends, the good times, bad times that will we shared will never be forgotten. There are so many people that i wanted to thank as all of them played a part in shaping my life. they made a difference.
i'm really glad that i went out today. i made my stand, made my choice and i walk away standing true to my character and did not waver in the face of adversity. to me, it was a test of what i always have believed in and whether i will stay true to my beliefs.
i do admit that at times in 18/05 i felt first 3 months sickness. at times i missed my ex-classmates and felt it was a pity that 3 months was such a short time. i have since come to accept the fact and i feel that the time we spent together might be short, but it was full of quality. they were people who made me feel like coming to ajc every morning.
when i first entered into 18/05, i was quite resentful of being the class. the reason is because i should have been placed in a non clao class. the first year was full of challenges to me. there was the mass civics incident, me and ee kent, surviving marcus, being sacked from air rifle and others that i could not remember now. the second year was making me and the rest of the guys to merge as one body. no more pw, no more feud. also, i got to know each of the gang of four members in depth and realise that the berlin wall that used to be between me and them was just an illusion on my part.
there are so many things to talk about actually, but whatever happens, i hope that they will cherish the moment and although i might never meet up with some of time ever again(i hope not, but things happen) i just wanted to say that i really enjoyed each and every of ur company and to me these memories will last forever.
i would like to say that the thing that i enjoyed doing most in 2 years of aj life is taking the train home with friends. really very enjoyable and the best way to destress after school. so to those people who took the train with me on my way home, thank you.
"The world is what you view it as"
Self Destructed at 5:08 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
seems like i got some free time aft clearing some of my school work. finally on schedule for my sch work.
felt strongly on what 39/05 prsented on bridge today thus i here to voice out my comments.
i was told tat every 3 seconds in this world a child dies from poverty in africa. but hav u realised tat every 3 seconds there is also a child born into this world?
in general, every 1 second someone in this world dies, but for that every second, a person is also born into this world. that is the balance of the world. there will always be ppl poor/rich smart/stupid etc. it is all part of the balance that we have in this world.
u see nothing is definite in life except death. so what if u r poor, rich, smart or stupid? we will all die at some point in time, either sooner or later.
my point is what is most important is how u live ur life. the process, and not how it will end, because we will all finish at the same place-death.
in this rat race that we are racing in everyday, have u ever slowed down and appreciate the things, ppl arnd u? if only revision lectures pace wasnt tat fast...
"In life, we see death. In death, we find life"
Self Destructed at 5:32 PM
Thursday, July 27, 2006
i'm finally 18!
haha. eyery year on tis day is a special day for me. it like getting a new life. goodbye to the 17 yr old me. helllo 18 yr old me!
today was a horribly long day! esp casey maths tutorial where we had a record number of presenters! n she so horrible dont let the class sing bday song =(
i seriously tot i would escape frm being tear aft surviving until chem remedial at arnd 6 plus. in the end faced wif the odds of being 1 v 3 plus jiayi said he wont help me, decided i stood no chance so juz chiong already n aim andie as counter attack plan. at least i managed to tear andie. lol.
i like to say that only the bernie hair look like me lor. seriously cant see any similarities apart frm that.
anyway tis will be my last post for a long while. will stop blogging until end of A lvl. it time to pia!
until den, there tmr trigo/vectors test to worry abt.
many thxs to all the ppl who made today special, i really appreciate it a lot.
It's time to start something new.
Self Destructed at 7:04 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
when the easy road leads u to a dead end, u noe it's time to change path take the hard road.
sometimes life turns out to be more den spending each day without worries.
life is making sacrifices.
at the end of the day, u will still be the system's servant.
all man r equal, but no man starts frm the same place.
hope will keep me alive.
0 ---> 61
Keep the faith, i will make the jump.
Self Destructed at 5:01 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006
1 week has past and time to do some reflection over what i did during the past week.
firstly been feeling uneasy over the past few days. seems like i was abandoning a lot of my friends. i feel like i become a cold person. the thing i felt damn bad abt was not being able to go mel bday celebration. i didnt sent her a msg to congrat her. ok i admit it was a bit inevitable as firstly mr andie hong sent msg to me at 12.02 am which i saw it at abt 9 plus where i was already in tampines area. sucks man shld hav told me earlier i would turn down my dad request to help him in his work. so there i was stuck in gongshan pri until nite where i also had to follow him to my grandma new home to do work. 1 whole day gone. on a side note, the yong tau foo stall near there was very nice n cheap.
also having even touch any of my work. ok i admit felt quite relieved aft hearing today tat jameson oso spend 1 week at pre u sem. zikai oso mention to me tat he nvr see my online during hols. ok muz admit when i use com i play game. argh addicted to tis game called ______ ok i wont say out the name cuz it quite a lame game to some ppl. i seriously hope to stop playing n let my sis take over. but she keep asking me over for advice. damn how to concentrate? also reminded me of wei rong who added me on msn months ago n i haven chatted wif him yet. sucks man. i really don wish things to become a frament of my memories. things tat i treasure. ppl that i cherish. ppl who changed my life. ppl who touch my life. sometimes it is very difficult for me. the heart is willing. but the body juz cant work the way i wan it to. frustration slowly seeps in.
time seems to be going too fast. there r so many things to do, so little time, so many games to play, so many tv shows to watch. sometimes i wish time will stop n i can appreciate the peace n arnd me.
so today i went back to sch. althou quite a few ppl ponned. it was day tat allowed me to sort out my thoughts n feelings. watching over the hedge wif ragen n ee kent next to me helps. at tat point in time i really felt tat watever discontentment i had abt ee kent truely disappear. maybe a light hearted movie tat cheered me up did the trick. really wish i could travel at the speed of light aft watching the show. lol. althou my neck super stiff aft sitting in 3rd row for abt 1.5hrs.
for tis week, tmr muz go to help my dad for the whole day again. so wed n thur i will need to do a gp essay to hand up n data analysis qn for lesson on fri. maybe a pool seesion on fri wif jia cheng. start small. baby steps it might be but i hope i can really give my best shot for mid yr.
n i will make a promise tat as soon as the a lvls end n i no longer hav the burden on me, i will look up every single person tat i noe in my life(provided i still remember thou) to meet up n say a simple wod of thanks. becuz one way or another they play a part in changing my life.
Self Destructed at 8:18 PM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
got the best remedy over the weekend.
the scoreboard read: Liverpool 1 Manchester United 0
man u n their fans can say wat they wan. we won. they lost. it juz so simple. i don like to argue anymore. juz accept ur defeat la. be gracious. in football either u win lose or draw. who cares who play better? who cares who was more lucky? we won. u lost. n the winning feeling is juz so nice. we got the bragging rights. till the next time we play again.
wonder who will be the 5 ppl tat i wll meet in heaven. the one who died so tat i lived. the one made the sacrifice for me. the stranger who plays a part in my life b4 i was born. the one tat i love the most. the one i failed to save.
n of course the person who i did saved. i be waiting for him/her to come meet me.
felt more positive in the mind. at least it a start. is there a book tat can stop me frm be too obsessed wif soccer? tat my only prob now.
realised it always abt living ur life for something/someone. dreams goals ambitions. making a difference. no life is a waste to live. yes the 2 person tat i cant click wif in my life, their life is not a waste. they are there for a reason. a reason tat my eyes couldnt see. maybe it was not meant for me to see.
we r all living for a reason. sometimes the reson is not known to us. we gotta find the reasons out ourselves.
"i live for u, so tat i be one of the five u will meet in heaven"
Self Destructed at 5:38 PM
Friday, February 17, 2006
a quick post cuz hav to stop using com.
been feeling a lot of emotions. today astro session was shiok. haha enjoying the carefree feeling of watching the stars in the sky. made me forget all my worries. it was one of the simple pleasures tat i enjoy doing.
haiz i seriously need to start mugging sooner or later. in the sorry state tat i'm in now i better start gaing some momentum. but i don really noe how to start.
Joy. Passion. Confidence. Life. Live. Learn. Experience. Try try n try. Love. Cherish. Enjoy. Believe. Get me a mug. put all tis things in n u can be a mugger. but u will lose all tis. tat is y i quite reluctant. i still wan to enjoy wat i enjoy.
ppl always wan the best of both worlds. but in true fact u cant get them.
it was always nice to be able to talk to somebody abt my feelings.
wonder y tian wei was not online today. sucks i need to ask him some football stuff.
i need to sort out my life.
Dreams-How u wished they always come true. but they dont.
